So much has happened since my last Journal like Rupert Grint getting swine flu, a porn actress tested positive for HIV, a boy getting hit by a Meteorite and lived, and Micheal Jackson stealing Fahara Fosets thunder!!!

Now nothing really has happened to me other then:
- Becoming 17
- getting ready to start my Senior year
- finding out my best friend is bi and that she has a girl friend (shocker at first)

But I wrote this journal because I want to know about you, how has everyone been??? Tell me something about yourself.

[x] You have screamed at an inanimate object for 'hurting you.'
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door.
[x] You have jumped out of a moving vehicle . (I would have been crazy staying in the car!)
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, and then people gave you weird looks.
[x] You have run into a tree/bush.
[x] You have been called a blond. (YES!!! and out of all the colors my hair has been, it has nevern been blonde!)

TOTAL: 6

[x] You know that it IS possible to lick your elbow.
[ ] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star had the same melody.
[x] You have tripped on your own feet and fallen. (all the time)
[x] You have choked on your own spit. (not my proudest moment)

TOTAL : 9

[ ] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it.
[ ] You type with three fingers or less.
[x] You have accidentally caught something on fire.
[ ] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose.
[ ] You have caught yourself drooling.

TOTAL: 10

[x] You have fallen asleep in class.
[ ] you have texted someone while sitting beside them in a class
[ ] Sometimes you just stop thinking. (I wish)
[x] Sometimes when you are telling a story you forget what you are talking about.
[x] People often shake their heads and walk away from you (what's that about? )
[x] You are often told to use your 'inside voice.'

TOTAL: 14


[ ] You use your fingers to do simple math.
[ ] You have eaten a bug accidentally
[x] You are taking this test when you should be doing something more important.
[x] You have put your clothes on backwards or inside out, and didn't realize it.
[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand/pocket the whole time.


TOTAL: 17


[ ] You have posted bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen if you don't.
[x] You break a lot of things.
[ ] You tilt your head when you're confused.
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before.
[x] When you're lying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture on the ceiling.
[x] The word "um" is used frequently.
[x] You don't know what "um" means. (It has Meaning!?!)
[x] You say "what" and "huh" a lot.
[ ] You plan to use a calculator to multiply your score for this bulletin.

GRAND TOTAL: 23

NOW, take your total, and multiply it by 4.
and re-post as: I am __% Mentally ill.

My grand total times 4 -> 100 % LOL

Level 1
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
(x) Smoked A Cigar
( ) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
SO FAR: 2

Level 2
( ) Are / Been In Love
( ) Dumped someone
( ) Been Fired
( ) Been In A Fist Fight
SO FAR: 2

Level 3
(X) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped Class
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(X) Seen Someone / Something Die
SO FAR: 5

Level 4
( ) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your deviantart / sheezyart Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
( ) Been On A Plane
(x) Thrown Up From Drinking
SO FAR: 6

Level 5
(X) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
(X) Met Someone Through Internet
(x) Been in a Mosh Pit
SO FAR: 9

Level 6
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(X) Taken Pain Killers
(X) Liked/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(X) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(X) Made A Snow Angel
SO FAR: 13

Level 7
( ) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
(x) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up
SO FAR: 17

Level 8
(X) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sliding
(X) Cheated While Playing A Game
(X) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
SO far: 22

Level 10
(X) Watched The Sun Set
(X) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake
SO FAR: 24

Level 11
(X) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
( ) Been cheated on
(X) Been Misunderstood
SO FAR: 27

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
(x) Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
SO FAR: 31

Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(X) Danced in the moonlight
SO FAR : 32

Level 14
(X) Hated The Way You Look
( ) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(X) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes (they are all over my computer table )
SO FAR: 35

Level 15
(X) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
( ) Swam In The Ocean
(X) Felt Like You Were Dying
SO FAR: 37

Level 16
(X) Cried Yourself To Sleep
( ) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
(X) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
SO FAR: 41

Level 17
(X) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(X) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain
SO FAR: 44

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(X) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
(X) Blown Bubbles
(X) Made A Bonfire On The Beach Or Anywhere
SO FAR: 48

Level 19
(x) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People.
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey
SO FAR: 51

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
(x) Jumped Off A Bridge
( ) Screamed "Penis" or "Vagina"
( ) Swam With Dolphins
SO FAR: 53

Level 21
( ) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cubes
(x) Kicked A Fish (sounds so odd but if you go swimming in a lake or pond then it's bound to happen)
(X) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top and watched the stars
SO FAR: 56

Level 22
(X) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(X) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about
SO FAR: 59

Level 23
(x) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(X) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had/Been In A Tree House
(x) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone ()
SO FAR: 60

Level 24
(X) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
( ) Gone Streaking
(x) Visited Jail
SO FAR: 62

Level 25
(x) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
( ) Broken A Bone
(X) Been Easily Amused
SO FAR: 66

Level 26
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(X) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(X) Cried So Hard You Laughed
SO FAR: 69

Level 27
(x) Mooned/Flashed Someone
(x) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
( ) Cheated On A Test
(X) Forgotten Someone's Name
(x) French Braided Someones Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
SO FAR: 73

Level 28
(X) Rode A Roller Coaster
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
( ) Had A Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed
SO FAR: 75

Level 29
(x) Been Used
(X) Fell Going Up The Stairs
(X) Licked A Cat
(X) Bitten Someone
(X) Licked Someone
SO FAR: 80

Level 30
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tires (no but a friend of mine did)
(x) Rode in a car/truck until the gas light came on
(x) Got five dollars or less worth of gas
TOTAL: 82

Total - 82 out of 128

I'm writing this journal more for myself then anyone else but I just needed to say that I've been feeling like I've been dorment for a long time now, hiding with in myself. The other day though I had an epiphany so to seek, and I realized that I need to 'wake up'.
so I'm about 2 and a half months late but I'm finally ready to forget 2008 and a start 09 with a smile

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[x] I Talk A LOT when I get really nervous.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I’m afraid of the dark. Although I love the dark, I fear it.
[ ] I can’t sleep in a room if the door is open
[ ] I can’t sleep in a room if the door is closed
[ ] I am homosexual.
[x] I believe in true love.
[ ] I’ve ran away from home
[x] I listen to political music.(some)
[ ] I collect comic books
[ ] I shut others out when I’m sad.
[x] I’ve stayed out all night.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I watch the news
[x] I love Disney movies.
[x] I am a sucker for green eyes.
[x] I am a sucker for brown eyes.
[x] I am a sucker for blue eyes.(I'm just a sucker for eyes)
[x] I don't kill bugs
[ ] I have “x”s in my screen name.
[x] I’ve slipped and fell in public.( I did just that today!... I went to lean of a desk and missed it XD)
[x] I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a real conversation (I was making fun of someone)
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I bake well.
[x] I have worn pajamas to class.
[ ] I want a better job
[x] Talked on a phone for 6+ hours.
[x] I love Dr. Phil.XD
[x] I like multiple people
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self-conscious.
[x] I love to laugh.
[x] I have tried alcohol.
[ ] I drink alcohol on a regular basis.
[x] I have tried a cigarette.
[ ] I have smoked a pack in one day.
[x] I loved Lord of the Flies.(wouldn't say love)
[ ] I have cough drops when I’m not sick.
[ ] I can’t swallow pills.
[x] I have a lot of scars.
[x] I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I like chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.( use to)
[ ] I am not comfortable with being me.
[ ] I play computer games when I’m bored.
[x] Gotten lost in the city.
[x] Thought of suicide before.(everyone has had one of those days)
[x] Seen a shooting star.
[x] Gone out in public in my pajamas
[x] Hugged a stranger.
[ ] Been in a fist fight.
[x] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of my nose.
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] Made out in an elevator.
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose.
[ ] Been skydiving.
[ ] Been bungee jumping.
[ ] Gotten stitches.
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] Bitten someone.
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.
[x] Gotten the chicken pox.
[x] Crashed into a car. (saddly I was run on food.... had to have dental work done after that! )
[ ] Been to Germany.
[ ] Ridden in a taxi.
[ ] Shoplifted.
[ ] Been fired.
[x] Had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
[ ] Stole something from your job.
[ ] Gone on a blind date.
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] Been to Europe.
[ ] Slept with a co-worker, and/or employee.
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[x] Saw someone/something dying.
[ ] Have a list of people you want to kill.
[x] Ridden in a car over 400 miles in one day.( I thisk so)
[x] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. (Uuu..dur!!)
[ ] Thrown up in a bar.
[x] Eaten sushi.
[x] Cried in public.
[x] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.
[x] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn’t have.
[x] Thought of someone a lot lately.
[ ] Hate the world.(I love the world I just hate what some do in it and to it)
[ ] I think I’m really attractive.
[ ] I prefer winter over summer.
[ ] I am a geek.
[ ] I am a shopaholic.
[x] I am reasonably intelligent.
[ ] I am attracted to girls.( they're pretty just not my type.lol)
[x] I am attracted to boys.
[x] I like British accents.
[ ] I smoke regularly.
[ ] I smoke socially.
[x] I drink socially.
[ ] I drink regularly.
[x] I get drunk easily.(is 4 cups of pure Vodka easy?)
[ ] I do “drug(s)”.
[ ] I will never date a bad kisser.
[ ] I’ve lied to avoid kissing them again.
[ ] I brush my hair at least 50 times a night.
[ ] I am religious.
[x] I am not religious but have morals.
[ ] I lie frequently.
[x] I am impulsive.
[x] I am hardworking.(at times)
[x] I loved Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind (of corse!)
[ ] She’s All That is one of my favourite movies.
[x] I am good at History.
[ ] I speak more than two languages.
[x] I enjoy taking pictures.
[ ] I like spending money on myself.
[x] I like spending money on others.
[ ] I have a regular income.
[ ] I earn money on a job-by-job basis.
[ ] I pay my own bills.
[x] I rely on my parents for money.
[x] I can cook.
[ ] I enjoy cleaning.
[ ] Tidiness is a must in my life.
[x] I like clutter.
[ ] My idea of good music is Britney Spears.
[ ] I am fashion-conscious.
[ ] I have good taste.
[x] People tell me I have good taste.
[ ] I am good at sports.
[x] I am good at certain sports.
[x] I couldn’t do sports to save my life.
[x] I am creative.
[ ] I am extremely artistically inclined.( wish I was)
[x] I want to be an artist when I grow up.
[ ] I want to be an engineer when I grow up.
[ ] I eat when I’m upset.
[x] I cannot adapt to change.
[x] I am interested in politics.( not much but some)
[x] I have shoplifted.( I DON'T MEAN TOO... I WAS 5!!!)
[x] I download MP3s.
[x] I have done underage drinking.
[ ] I have gone underage clubbing.
[ ] I can dance reasonably well. (
[ ] I can dance extremely well.
[X] I dance like a cardboard gorilla.
[ ] I can sing. (some people this so but I don't)
[x] I sing like someone stepped on my foot. (If only I could sing that good..lol)
[x] I can swim.(just not well)
[ ] I enjoy surveys.
[x] I enjoy surveys when I’m bored.
[ ] I keep a journal.
[ ] My teachers don’t like me.
[ ] I enjoy controversy.
[x] I can be a bitch/bastard.
[x] I have a thing for bad boys/girls.
[ ] I have tattoos.
[ ] I’ve been in a nudist colony.
[x] I’m not sure if I want to have children.
[x] I’m not sure if I’ll get married.
[ ] I know who I will marry.
[x] Someone has a crush on me.
[ ] I am interesting.
[x] I am a good liar.(at least I'd like to think so )
[x] People enjoy talking to me.
[x] I annoy people from time to time.
[ ] I am a born leader.
[ ] I am a born leader but shouldn’t lead.(I'm more of a wallflower)
[x] I’ve snuck out of the house.
[ ] I have a foot fetish. (more like phobia)
[ ] I have a shoe fetish
[ ] I watch Sex And The City.
[ ] I don’t think Sarah Jessica Parker is pretty.
[ ] I want to be J Lo.
[ ] I cut myself.
[x] I have cut myself.
[ ] I hate people who pretend to be suicidal.(I don't hate anyone, that person still must have problems to even want to fake that)
[ ] I hate popular people.(agian I don't hate anyone)
[x] I think cheerleading is a sport.(I'd say no but my cusin would kick my ass)
[ ] I am photogenic.(oh no, no, no!)
[x] I live in Chucks.
[x] I think graffiti is art.
[ ] I have dated a criminal.
[ ] I have been cheated on.
[ ] I have cheated on someone.
[x] I have a temper.
[x] I like playgrounds.
[x] I dance in the rain.
[ ] I am obsessed with Shakespeare.
[x] I have tan lines.
[ ] My favourite color is pink.
[ ] My favourite color is black.
[ ] I would classify myself as emo.
[ ] I am musically inclined.(I wish)
[x] I like listening to music.
[ ] I like music-blasting cars.
[ ] Thongs are comfortable
[ ] I like flip-flops.
[x] I know what monogamy is
[ ] … and I believe in it.
[ ] I want to be a social worker when I grow up.
[x] I have sibling[s]
[x] My siblings annoy me (not bad just sometimes)
[ ] I think South Park is funny.
[x] I prefer Google (I'll google it, yahoo it, it really doesn't matter)
[x] I can sit Indian Style
[X] I own a cat (10 and counting)
[x] I plan on owning more. (sure... more of what I have no idea!)
[x] I read a lot.
[x] I’ve cheated on a test. (It wasn't a very big test just a small quiz )
[x] I’ve let someone cheat off of me on a test